Because of some unforeseen circumstances, I’ve been off my bipolar meds for two weeks.
I’ve seen my psychiatrist and am starting a new medication, but until it starts working, I’m struggling.
Here are the biggest problems I’m noticing:
a. I can’t handle other people’s emotions. They overwhelm me to the point of severe anxiety. This keeps me from talking to anyone about anything.
b. I can’t keep a train of thought. They all fizzle out before I can complete them. This keeps me from working on anything.
c. I feel utterly defeated and mentally exhausted. There’s too much happening in my head for me to keep up with. This makes me want to sleep just to get relief from my thoughts.
This is all I have right now. I wish I could give more but I just can’t. However, I have hope that I will feel better.
The expectations of this month are hard for me to handle right now, so I’ll be “Out of the Office” until after the New Year, while I try to get a grip on this depression and the countless requirements of life.
As always, thank you for all your love and support.
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